Peskey Innsecurity-ATJ

What is one thing that you are insecure about? Think about. What hinders your confidence? As a writer, I get insecure about my writing. Does it relate? Is it likeable? Will the person connect? — All these questions ravage my mind at times, and makes me insecure of my ability to create written content. I’ve deleted paragraphs, entire chapters, and deleted content that I’ve worked on for hours that I had already published; all because of that pesky thing we all struggle with – insecurity.


There are a few levels of insecurity, and some so high that suicide is contemplated or attempted. Insecurity by English definition is “lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt.”  A lack of confidence. It is clear that confidence is broken in our society. Confidence to create. Confidence to speak. Confidence to live. I believe we all search for a confidence boost when we are self-doubting, and fortunately, our boost of choice are often temporary. However, there is one confidence boost that lasts, and that’s Jesus Christ. The most confident man who ever lived on this earth, but who also was human, and understands our daily struggles and emotional infliction. The same Man who stated the powerful words in John 14:12, Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these. It boggles my mind that these words were said, because Jesus Christ did so much, and for him to say that we will do even greater things kicks any self-doubt to the curve. God created you for so much more than you can think. You are much more than you think. If there is anything that is weighing you down, that is diminishing your self-confidence, let it go, and realize that you can do “even greater things.”

I‘ll conclude with this exhortation that I hope your heart and spirit accepts openly…

You are more. You are capable. You are equipped with unmeasurable talent, skills, gifts, and creativity. Believe, and do not doubt. Lastly, live freely in God’s perfect pleasing will.

Verses to meditate on:

I can do all things through Christwho strengthens me.” — Philippians 4:13


Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” — Philippians 4:8-9


So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him,rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forcesof this world rather than on Christ. — Colossians 2:6-8




We have the spiritual capacity to go through the toughest situations that can occur in our lives. We have it within ourselves to continue pushing forward despite any hurdles that obstruct our way. You have purpose. You have meaning. You are not an accident. Everything could be in complete desolation around you, but you are complete in Christ — you have everything within you. While the world might say no to you, God has said yes. So don’t let go of your dreams, hopes, faith, and love. Don’t let go — don’t let go of who you are in Christ.

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” – (Romans 8:37)


Don’t let go of your dreams. If you have determination and belief in your dreams, you will succeed in spite of your desire to let go.” Catherine Pulsifer

Inspired by this song below:


Not Man

God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?” — Numbers 23:19

Have you ever been failed by someone close to you? Dependency turned out to be liability. You trusted, but to end up with trust issues due to a constant stream of lies. Someone promised you something, but the promise was made by a piker. I remember moments in my life that I would reflect my inability to trust people onto God. I treated God equal to man. We build walls so high that it reaches God. We have a way of hardening our hearts that it only takes a unfailing love to soften it — God’s love.

We can be lied to, left disappointed, and back-stabbed by man. However, be encouraged that you’re Creator who has defined you, and has paved a road of greatness for you to talk upon does not lie, disappoint, and back-stab. God is not man. He promises, and fulfills. Be encouraged that God will not fail you. God is faithful. He’s no backstabber. There is no way for God to ever be unfaithful. A friend might break a promise, but He never will. He is not man.



My childhood wasn’t so pleasant, considering the amount of times I got bashed due to my weight. The words uttered by my peers at school and even family members were quite hurtful. Their words gave me a false perception about myself – a useless fat slob that has nothing to show for himself. I was no different though; my words were worse, and I hurt a lot of people in the process. I made people cry, feel awful about themselves, and probably scared them for life. My words were a constant stream of daggers that aimed to inflict pain. I was also a huge cyber bully. I was the guy behind the computer screen taking the time to write terrible stuff to people online. But that was then, now I have a new voice, and no longer blind to the effect that words can have on an individual.

Words have the power of life and death. (See Proverbs 18:21) Our words can provide the courage to continue or one more reason to give up. We underestimate the power that words can have; words kill and give lifel. Words can lead someone to better themselves or to take their own life away – suicide. It’s important to watch what we say to those around us. A simple “have a nice day” can go a long way for someone. That person could be going through a tough situation, and by hearing those words it brightened up their day.

Words can shape or misshape. “Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.” – (Ephesians 4:29) Our words should encourage, uplift, restore, enlighten, and inspire. Our words should never be aimed to bring someone down.

Hate speech is something that should never be manifested.  It’s not a correct representation of unconditional love — God’s love.

Words carry enormous weight, so we should seek to use words that are sweet, and healthy for the soul:

Gracious words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.” – Proverbs 16:24 NIV

When we speak the content of our heart is spilling out. What you have in your heart will be manifested, and those around you will see it. If you are full hate, people will see, hear, and feel hate from you. Examine your heart. Our words are always a perfect picture of what’s going on side of our hearts.

Keep your mouth free of perversity; keep corrupt talk far from your lips.” – Proverbs 4:24 NIV

Inspiration of this post:


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Radical obedience to Christ is not easy… It’s not comfort, not health, not wealth, and not prosperity in this world. Radical obedience to Christ risks losing all these things. But in the end, such risk finds its reward in Christ. And he is more than enough for us.” ― David Platt, Radical: Taking Back Your Faith from the American Dream

Me-myself-and-I. I bought into that idea, and I manifested it. However, that period of my life was terrible. I was living a life of complete anguish. I was living a life of myself, and that “life of myself” was not the life that I was destined to live. You see, outside of Christ there is no life. Just vanity, idols, and nothing perpetual. For example, my idol that I served starting at the age of thirteen until sixteen was pornography. My lust for visual sexuality became my god. I served it. I lived for it. It was the author of decisions. My thoughts. My selfish ambitions. My reasoning. My actions. Were all subject to my idols, vanities, and temporary gratification.  This life of me was a life of death.

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We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” – (2 Corinthians 10:5 NIV)

That is what I did. It was not easy. However, I died. I died to that “life of myself.” I surrendered myself to the true author of my life – God. My life is now subject to God’s will. This life that I live is not mine to live for myself. It’s to live for God, and Him alone, and to share what He has given me to others. While I still stumble in trying, I know that I must live a life in radical obedience towards God.

What I am trying to convey here is that we forget at times in our spiritual journey that we have died to ourselves. God’s children do not live for themselves. Complete obedience is to forget about ‘you’ and to put God first in everything. Having that type of mindset is radical, because it does not fit our humanistic agenda. We have desires of our own, and putting them aside for God’s will is no easy task. The idea of putting God first in everything agitates, because we struggle with our carnalistic condition of instant gratification. We want things to happen at our time, when it’s in God’s time. God does not conform to our lifestyle. However, in obedience we allow ourselves to be transformed to live a life love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. (Galatians 5:22-23) The moment we make God our priority is the moment we are truly living life and things start to fall into place in your life.

For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” – (Philippians 1:21 NIV)


I encourage to read these:

God Broke Me

The Gospel of Us

Alive in Christ Yet Not Living Life




The sky’s is the limit. That phrase has truth to it. Just as the sky seems infinite; God is infinite, and has no limitations.  God can do all things. He is omniscient and omnipotent. However, why do we limit what God can do in our life? By limiting God, we are limiting ourselves. We allow our negative thoughts to be our reality. We limit ourselves to dreaming small instead of dreaming big, and to me, that’s putting God in a small box when He cannot be boxed.

God can do all things. God is in you, and you are in Him. Do you get what I’m saying?! God is in you! If God can do all things, and He is in you then you can do a lot. You can do big things in life, because of the power and strength of God abides in you. (1 Corinthians 15:28, 1 Corinthians 6:19)

Jesus Christ even said it, “Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.” – John 14:12 Even greater things!

I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” – (Philippians 4:13 NIV)

We are able to do all things through Christ. God is beyond us – in all things. But God is trying to tell us something, and that something is that we can do more than we think we think we can. We can achieve anything through the strength that dwells within us. We can move the mountains. Nothing can stand against God, and if He is with us, nothing can stand against us. Family hardship, financial problems, etc., nothing can stand against us.

Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God” – (Mark 10:27)

Another thing is to not submit God to your reasoning. God does not formulate ideas the way you do. Our minds are finite. Therefore, the key to not seeing your life through a straw’s hole is to tap into the power faith. (Proverbs 3:5-6, Isaiah 55:8-9)

Great is our Lord and mighty in power;
    his understanding has no limit.” – (Psalms 147-5 NIV)

Don’t box God. God cannot fit in a box, and neither should you.

If you always put limit on everything you do, physical or anything else. It will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them.” – Bruce Lee


God sees us perfect, and great in his eyes. However, how do you see yourself? Do you look at your life through your carnal eyes or do you see your life through the eyes of God?
We cannot look at life in a worldly way. We need to look at our life’s how God sees life. We need to look at ourselves the way God sees us, not how the world sees us. The world sees me as a religious fanatic, but I see myself as a passionate young adult who is on fire for God, and who is addicted to grace. That has a purpose, and lives to do the will of God. That’s how I see myself.
I know our eyes can get weary at times, but God’s eyes don’t. Let your eyes be His eyes. Look at things the way God looks at things. When you look at yourself and your life, don’t have a negative sight, have a positive sight of yourself and your life. God only sees the positive, so should you.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” – Hebrews 11:1

We cannot see our future. However, with a faith that is steadfast, we can have sight of what is to come, by the power of  faith.


Trade your finite eyes with God’s eyes. God sees a lot in you, and should see it in yourself. God has chosen you for a reason. You are not without purpose. You have big life ahead of you! You may not see it through your eyes, but you will see it through God’s. Put them godly glasses on.

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” – 2 Corinthians 4:18


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Picture yourself driving, and all of a sudden you lose control of your vehicle, and start drifting. You try to gain control, but you can’t. Therefore, you prepare yourself for possible impact and injury. Well, that’s what has happened to me for the past few weeks personally in my life. I lost control, and I have drifted around widely. Not focusing, distracted, and surrendering to my carnal desires instead of surrendering to the way of the spirit. You’ve probably been wondering why I have not written anything in a while, and I do apologize, but like I said I’ve been distracted. But no more!

When I was lost and spiritually dead, I was the one driving my life, and I crashed, and kept crashing. I was driving in the wrong direction. However, when Jesus Christ came into my life, I gave him the wheel to guide me. I decided to stop doing my way, and decided to do God’s way through Jesus Christ. He turned me around, and led me down the path God created for me to drive on. You see, I’m a terrible driver when it comes to navigating through life, but Jesus Christ is not. He’s a pro. And when I allow him to take the wheel, I’m not drifting around crashing into things. Life is good when Christ is in control. However, the moment I push Christ away and take control of the wheel, yeah… it never ends well. Which is what has been going on with me lately — I decided to take the wheel, and all I’ve done is spin out of control. Thankfully, God slapped me a couple of times to snap out of it, and I’ve let Christ retake the wheel. I’m focusing, no longer distracted, and reigning in life. Let Christ Jesus take the wheel of your life. He’s the ultimate driver.


“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, JOY, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” – Galatians 5:22-24

Iturn that frown upside downf you read closely you probably noticed that I intentionally made the word ‘Joy’ stand out in the verse above. Why you ask? Because I want to talk about happiness and unhappiness. There are things that occur in our daily lives that change our mood. It’s how we work in the flesh. We become angry. We become sad. We become doubtful. It’s how our human emotions work. However, our inner spirit – the Holy Spirit works in a different way for those who are alive in Christ. I like to be straight to the point, so… being unhappy is impossible if you have the Spirit of the Lord within you. Yes, it’s impossible. The Holy Spirit does not produce unhappiness. It just can’t. Yet, I often see brothers and sisters in Christ with an attitude that reads unhappiness. How can that be? It does not make any sense. If you have the Spirit of the Lord within you, you must produce happiness, (Joy) and manifest it. We can be unhappy in the flesh, but we cannot be unhappy in the Spirit. That is why God wants us to live a spiritual life, and not a carnal life. It’s not easy to constantly live by the Spirit, but it’s not impossible. If you want to live a happy life, you need to live by the Spirit. Simple as that. Living by the Spirit = Happiness. If you are feeling unhappy at this moment, well… stop. If you have the Spirit of the Lord in you turn that frown upside down. Smile! :)


If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to hate. (Love)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to be unhappy. (Joy)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to want war. (Peace)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to seek revenge. (Forbearance)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to be unkind to those around you. (Kindness)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to not do good deeds. (Goodness)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to be unfaithful. (Faithfulness)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to be violent. (Gentleness)

If you live by the Spirit it’s impossible to not control yourself. (Self-Control)

Live by the nine. The nine fruits of the Spirit. It equals a a great life.

“Happiness is not being pained in body or troubled in mind.”
Thomas Jefferson


*Phone Rings* Person: “Hello?” God: “I love you.” That’s what God tells us when we decide to pick up the phone when he’s calling us. God is always trying to be in constant communication with us. However, we tend to ignore him at times. When going through a tough situation, we decide to listen to others, but we forget that God is the one with all the answers. Don’t pick up the phone to the world. Ignore it. Those with worldly idealism have nothing good to say. They’re calling you to sell you garbage. Answer God’s call. God has the solutions to your problems. Don’t ignore Him. We have to be in constant communication with God. We don’t have to worry about going over our minutes, our time to talk with God is unlimited. We don’t have to worry about the call being dropped. God step up thee strongest cell phone tower that provides signal connection to the whole world, and the closer we are to God, the more signal bars we will have. God provides us with the means to be in constant communication with Him, and we have to take advantage of that. You might be going through something at this very moment, but I can assure you, that God is trying to reach you, so pick up the phone, because God is calling you.